Sheep and Collie

I had my first migraine today
It felt like I transcended my body
every blinding light disabled me
washing through my missing body

I vibrated rainbows

I saw shadows

creatures in the sky

I remember the first time
I had a panic attack
it was winter
and I was in bed with my boyfriend
in the basement of his parents house
And I thought maybe it felt like
I was floating above my body
or maybe I saw Jesus
and then it just felt like I was suffocating
and I ran into the cold
to be released